Dear Zoey,

This entry might be a little overly sentimental, but it’s pretty necessary.

Zoey, you have been my strength through so many dark times. When you were an infant, you’d fall asleep on my chest. And my thoughts would wonder, and I’d feel so heavy, but I would just hold you close. All the pieces of my heart would somehow feel whole again. Whenever I’ve had to go through heartbreak or stressful times, you’re what keeps me going. In fact, there have been days where you are the only thing jolting me back to life.

You will have dark times in your future. You will experience heartbreak and loss. People will leave. People will die. You will have times of self-doubt and insecurity. And in those times, I want you to read this:

You have a such a bright light that you offer the world. People are immediately captivated by your spirit and sweet heart. You are bold and hilarious. You are inquisitive and interesting. You are constantly seeking answers to some of the most profound and funny questions I’ve ever heard. You are kind and emotional and lovely. Even people who don’t know how to be around kids, know how to be around you. You have an old soul. You carry a story within you that is adventurous and open and free. You deeply value your friends and family. You make me so proud to be your mom. And even though I’ve only had 5 short years with you, you have made my life so rich and full already.

I’ll always be sorry for the weight of life you’ve been burdened with at such a young age, but you will (and already have) an amazing resilience. Thank you for your hugs and cuddles and “I love you’s” out of nowhere. Thank you for loving me despite my flaws as a mom. Thank you for giving me the brightest, most interesting, funniest, weirdest experiences of my life.

Please,¬†always keep shining…this dark universe needs more lights like you.

Love you,

2 thoughts on “#9

  1. Megan says:

    Don’t stop writing! I read this blog as I snuggle with my 2 month old Zoey. I had this same idea – a “dear Zoey” blog, and so I googled the phrase and here I am. Your sweet little girl will appreciate all you offer her. My own mother passed away many years ago and I wish more than anything that I had her written words as her legacy and advice to me. So – don’t stop. Keep going.

    • nonameamanda says:

      Oh my…you really have no idea how much I needed this comment today. Thank you! Do you have a blog? I would love to follow, if so!

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