So, I’m about 75% through my P90X3 journey. I’ve done P90X a few times before, but could never wrap my life around the long workouts from it. P90X3 offers great 30 minute workouts, which is perfect. It still can be a challenge to fit it in some days, but it’s become such a routine that I willingly find the time. But here’s my biggest discovery through this process.
I started off tracking my weight, tracking my inches. And I was seeing great improvements, but about halfway through, I had an epiphany. I felt good and I just didn’t care about the numbers anymore. I know, I know…this is a big no-no in the realm of weight loss and working out, but it just wasn’t my motivator anymore. And I don’t really know why it happened. I wasn’t trying to make some grand statement or be a rebel. I didn’t even really make a decision, I just really didn’t care about the numbers. If my numbers were higher than the week before, it didn’t phase me because I just felt good and healthy.
I know there’s a lot of shaming going around these days. Fat shaming, skinny shaming, real food shaming, processed food shaming…shaming, shaming, shaming. And I’m just kind of sick of that shit. So, here’s my response to all of it: Do what feels good. Being comfortable with my body has been a fight I’ve fought for majority of my life. I’ve had two pregnancies, one full-term and a lot of emotional ups and downs throughout the last decade. And within the past year, I learned something huge…you become what you put your energy into. And instead of putting my energy into being angry at my body or constantly comparing myself to someone else…I put my energy into feeling good. Doing things that made my life positive and peaceful. The better the energy I put out, the better I felt.
And I know I’m making it sound like it’s such an easy fix. It’s not. It takes a lot of baby steps, with some missteps and some falling down. I’m certainly not an expert on this, but I think sometimes, especially in fitness, we’re so focused on the results that we forget the journey. I haven’t lost many more pounds since the first 30 days of this process, but the amount of things I can do with my body now that I couldn’t do in the beginning is pretty incredible. At the end of my 90 days, I’ll post my before and after pics, but the contentment I’ve found with myself and body far outweigh the physical progress.